“I took my boyfriends phone and pretended I was him and started chatting to his baby mamma asking that we get back together. I then told him what I did and he was upset, and says he doesn’t understand why I did it. But I told him it is because I don’t trust him and I have caught him chatting with his baby mamma telling her he missed her, the baby momma also said she missed him too. We have been dating for 3 years. I figured I would do him a favor and get them back together. But I still want to be with him, I was feeling hurt and angry. I don’t know what to do whether I should leave or try mend things. I feel really bad about this and scared that I was able to be so conniving.”
May I say I think it speaks well of you to admit going through your man’s phone. It’s quite commendable. Oftentimes, people have a problem with accountability. Kudos to you!
The question is why? Why did you do it? Not so much about the act, but the reason (you say) for doing it. You did it as a “favor,” to help him and his ex-get back together? Girl, let’s never pass out those type of favors. The disadvantage is your attempted favor actually draws them together with something to talk about— you. You may have become the spectacle and the topic of their discussion.
I’m thinking you may have done that, meaning, going through the dialogue of pretending to be him in order to gauge where those two actually are. Not sure if deep down it was a favor, per se, but more like a feel to see exactly what might be revealed if you stepped in his shoe of discussion with her. What did you learn? Can you use the information?
However, if your man is worth it; and by this I mean if you want to hold on to him; then bring your best self. He doesn’t need to miss anything from an ex. He’s got you. Now if he did indeed say he missed his ex, then you need to bring your game a little harder. You can cover everything he needs and then some. You’ve been together for 3 years. What are you doing to make it last? How are you engaging him as a participant to make you two last for another 3 years? Three years is an accomplishment. What brought you both together this far? Why is he with you and not her? Why did he leave her? The answers are great places to build your continued relational future on.
He has violated your trust. When I say this, I am saying in the spirit of truth—-meaning, assuming you have verifiable proof that he said he misses his ex (baby mama). It looks like you may have violated his trust as well. You both have some “trust” mending to do. Deal with the issues and enjoy the process of healing together. It is self-contradiction to want someone to be trustworthy and then you do things to be untrustworthy. Nothing is worth you compromising your own self-beliefs.
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